In Search

What Are You Looking For?
Seems like an easy question, but it’s not. Especially when you are in a current status where you feel lost and in a limbo.

• How long will you be in this state? No one knows. You just have to go on everyday and hope that someday you will find the answer to the dreaded question.
• Emotional shut down- that’s where I am now.
• Feel loved? Yes-but it still feels empty. Doesn’t matter the quantity of kisses & hugs I
  receive it still feels point blank.
• Why? Cause I’ve been hurt and the hope for
  betterment of things vanished.
• Do I need attention? Maybe- I think I do but the
  sad part is it doesn’t fill the void. It’s just a temporary solution for what I am looking for. It is difficult to wake up and face each day with doubt and uncertainty of the only thing that makes me feel assured.
• My solution? Self-appreciation. Make myself happy and do things that will make me feel good about myself until I figure it out.
• Hugs & Kisses? Yes, I need it but I need it to come from someone who can promise
  me to be there for a long term otherwise it would not really matter.