Inception Fever.. ;)

Last night boo decided to sleep at his mom's house to do some stuff there. So that means more alone time for me to do whatever. I find it ridiculous but the time apart kinda helps the relationship. I am a person who needs her own space and my moment to take care and go back on my little ways. Mister is the same way too.

I watched a movie, munched on my doritos paired with my ice cold coke. I fell asleep around 2 am.. I had crazy dreams. People from my past just showed up in my dreams , it was going so good that I didn't even wanna stop dreaming. I was dreaming about salsa dancing, nate, tony and etcetera.. I just wanna go on & on and see where it would lead to. Hahahaha.. now I even feel silly talking about it. But when I was on it,, i would wake up but would force my self to go back in a deep slumber to see what's gonna happen next. I couldn't reiterate more how real everything seems to be. =)

The next thing I know it's almost 9am and I need to get up. The first thing that entered in my mind when I opened my eyes.. " ohh , it's all in my subconscious" (pertaining to my dream). Things that I saw in my dream are all my projections.. I may not talk about it out loud but it stayed in mind. Then it dawned on me that I just watched the movie Inception that's why I feel more empathy and more attachment to my dream. lol =)

But dreams are sometimes good.. it gives you a different world of possibilities. You either wake up feeling happy or feeling sad about everything. But they say dreams are also manifestations..dreams also gives you access to other people or situations you would like to be into or you were into before. No matter how close they feel being to reality it is STILL and will remain a dream. It'll last only up to the time you would hear your alarm clock beeping or your window sunlight dodging you to wake up. :)

If you wanna take it further here's a link for you to analyze and interpret you dreams: http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/

Summer Heat!!!

Me and J tries to take advantage of the summer, he said all his life every summer he would try to work hard since it's the peak season for their business. But he said, this year he wants to enjoy it and relax at little bit. So we try to come up with activities, go to festivals, plans outdoor adventures, go to outlets and etc..

Here are some of the pics we have..

Pirate's festival at Vallejo

Menlo Park Fair

Lake Berryessa

Napa Trip

Stinson beach

Baker's beach

Good day!

Today was a good and fun day for me.. I had lunch with Pau,Kc,Albert & Toffer @ Hot Pot City in Milpitas. Then I spent the afternoon with the Mister in San francisco. We just chilled and hangout at Baker's Beach then spend the day driving like tourists in the City.

One thing I realized..even though I may say I am upset w/ the mister sometimes.. at the end of the day my love for him wins me over everything.

I love you J. Thanks for being my boo boo..ur the best =)

Who's who?

I am never a jealous person..sometimes i feel it but most of the time i ignore it and put it aside. But there are moments that I couldnt help but just blurt it out. I hate that feeling..and I just wana get rid of it asap.

So, mister is still friend with his 1st love in myspace and it has been buggin me for so long but has kept mum abt it until one incident happened. How things struck me is that I can feel that he is still a lil bit MORE concern over that girl. I know she used to be special..or is she STILL special? who knows..right?

In my eagerness to stop this bad feeling I chose to be selfish for once. I asked the mister if he could possibly delete her from his myspace. Deleting her would more mean to me than just erasing her..it will mean to me that she's totally out of the picture in the life we are trying to build. It would mean PEACE. I was very hopeful that this will be the resolution of this dilemma that i have. Since its the only that i can think of that would totally suffice my ill feeling.

Guess what? He wouldn't!!! or maybe he couldn't. tsk tsk tsk...Yup, you read right..he wouldn't delete her. Why? You tell me the reason.

I was pissed last night. I felt so disrespected with him not being more sensitive. I had all these crazy ideas going on my head..coz i know getting even is the only way for me to feel better. Sometimes, people dont realize what they did until it happen to them. We were in the resto having dinner while we were talking about this.. uggh good thing i have good anger management skills.

I have all the right to get mad and feel unimportant. But I am looking at this as something that I just need to accept. It may have its consequences soon but no one can tell. Some lil things usually I just let it pass..i beleieve in choosing your battles. but this one, i dont know if i can just let it go like that. I am not feeling angry right at this moment..in fact, I am waiting for him to pick me up now coz we'll have dinner at a korean bbq resto, but I think this is something that i would remember for a while.

July 4th weekend

My cousin, Tin, had a quick visit in East Bay with some of her friends.. pics are posted below..

dinner @ Intramuros..drinks at SF then Napa Valley the next day..

I consider tin as one of my cousins i am closest with. We used to live in one house before when we were in college and I remember we had so much fun. Define FUN as clubbing, dancing, drinking, shopping, going to the salon and etcetera. =) But aside from that, we basically grew up together, she's only a year ahead of me so we really get along well in everything.

I am hoping she will make the big move soon here in East bay.. let's wait & see..

All is well

Last night was a Salsa dancing night for me and boo.. it was in Cafe Cocomo!
I didnt know what to expect since I haven't really tried salsa. There was a beginner's class for almost 2 hours so it wasn't really difficult at all. I am just super amazed how the pros have their body so toned and the posture so right the whole dance.. you cant help but feel a little insecure. but what the heck.. lights are dimmed and I wont see those people again ..probably in my next lifetime..lol. so me and my boo just tried hard to keep the steps right and struted our way to the music. Overall it ws a fun experience.. =)
Had dinner afterwards, I am just so greatful that me and J were able to talk our issues openly that made us understand our situation better. Apparently, he was missing his guy friends and he have this mental issue in his head that if he talks to other girls other than me he's like sort of cheating but not really cheating at all..does that make sense? Oh well, one thing we realized last night is that though we're married we are still 2 different individuals who needs to socialize with other people besides us.

Ill be honest, sometimes it kinda worries me if I just let him do this thing..he admits feeling the same way too if I befriend other people.. but last night we kinda reassured each other that what we have is so much valuable to put to waste over doing stupid stuff and breaking each other's trust. I am just glad that i did the right thing not restricting him too much and giving him space so he can come back to his senses and really decide on what he wants.

I love j.. and i want him to be happy in all ways he can.. =)

Btw, last wednesday I met the girls again @ Forbidden Island Tiki Lounge in alameda..few drinks plus chat here and there. I am looking forward to the next meet up. :)

my drink for the night: Leilani Volcano

Leilani Volcano

• 3 oz Guava Nectar
• 1 ½ oz Pineapple Juice
• ¾ oz Lime Juice
• ¼ oz Rock Candy Syrup
• 1 ½ oz Coconut Rum

Combine ingredients in mixing tin and shake with 1 cup crushed ice, or use a handy dandy top-down mixer for 3 seconds. Pour into your nearest coconut shell or chimney glass.

Happy Place

My blog is my Happy place. =) for the reason that i can say anything and not be scared to be judged. And it also shows me how i react on certain situations in past experiences and how should I have reacted better. Usually, I am not the emotional kind..i try not to cry cause I believe that crying wont lead to solving. I think I am built that way.. to always think logically and rationally no matter how bad the circumstances are. But of course, I do cry. Sometimes. If i feel there's nothing I can do about it.

But you see sometimes you can choose not to care anymore and focus and what is more important in your life. And i think i like that idea better than anything else. There may be few bumps here & there but it doesnt end there. Life doesn't end the moment you feel sad..it may hurt a little ..but it is not the end of it. =) It is but a normal cycle of life to have ups and downs and what counts it how maturely you handle each bump that cause you downfall and how you use each success to better you as a person.

And i strongly believe in the saying that people will stay in your life because they want to not because you did everything to let them stay. I could not chase rainbows and skies all the time to make sure I am on top of each situation. I do not intend to live like that. I already know the life I wanna live and I'm not the type to change it all for one person. Life is grander that what it is...

I am a happy person and I will always keep that in my mind.

weep =(

i need a hug..i feel so bad the whole night.. =(