Who's who?

I am never a jealous person..sometimes i feel it but most of the time i ignore it and put it aside. But there are moments that I couldnt help but just blurt it out. I hate that feeling..and I just wana get rid of it asap.

So, mister is still friend with his 1st love in myspace and it has been buggin me for so long but has kept mum abt it until one incident happened. How things struck me is that I can feel that he is still a lil bit MORE concern over that girl. I know she used to be special..or is she STILL special? who knows..right?

In my eagerness to stop this bad feeling I chose to be selfish for once. I asked the mister if he could possibly delete her from his myspace. Deleting her would more mean to me than just erasing her..it will mean to me that she's totally out of the picture in the life we are trying to build. It would mean PEACE. I was very hopeful that this will be the resolution of this dilemma that i have. Since its the only that i can think of that would totally suffice my ill feeling.

Guess what? He wouldn't!!! or maybe he couldn't. tsk tsk tsk...Yup, you read right..he wouldn't delete her. Why? You tell me the reason.

I was pissed last night. I felt so disrespected with him not being more sensitive. I had all these crazy ideas going on my head..coz i know getting even is the only way for me to feel better. Sometimes, people dont realize what they did until it happen to them. We were in the resto having dinner while we were talking about this.. uggh good thing i have good anger management skills.

I have all the right to get mad and feel unimportant. But I am looking at this as something that I just need to accept. It may have its consequences soon but no one can tell. Some lil things usually I just let it pass..i beleieve in choosing your battles. but this one, i dont know if i can just let it go like that. I am not feeling angry right at this moment..in fact, I am waiting for him to pick me up now coz we'll have dinner at a korean bbq resto, but I think this is something that i would remember for a while.