Distractions

I was talking to a friend and he said he deleted his facebook account since he spent so much time on it. For him it was an unnecessary distraction that deters him from his focus.
Of course, my initial reaction is I said he was funny.

But now that I am really thinking about it, I would have to say that I admire him for doing that. Sometimes we get caught up with little things in our life in which we just waste our time with. Might as well totally “delete” them and have your energy for things that will help you improve and be productive. In a way, I practice the same principle too although sometimes I choose to be swerved in undisclosed paths, lol. But I believe him though, out of sight=out of mind. That’s the easiest to get back on track and not keep unimportant things or people around you.

If you are focused take all the necessary things to make sure you would stay aligned on the trail you have chosen.

Shopalism

Don’t buy what you don’t need. We all have the tendency to live extravagantly and splurge on things we thought we wanted. It can be an expensive camera, overpriced shoes, designer bag, branded clothing. We all at one point—SPLURGE.

I was looking at my closet and I can find hundred stuffs that I bought that I am not even using. The thrill of going to outlets and stores are easier rather than going thru piles of unused merchandise. I am guilty of overbuying and wasting my money over these material things. If I look at what I have closely I bet it is more than what I need.

Oh well, it is never too late to change, right? I will try to spend my money on something worthwhile. Use it for travel or just simply save it. These are some tips I gathered online on ways to stay away from costly shopping spending spree:

1.) Carry around cash. It can be easy to overspend when you’re not seeing the full extent of your expenses. When you carry around cash, your payment is tangible.

2.) Stay away from online stores. If you are bored and found yourself looking at merchandise online. Consciously, click the “x” button and read something else. Shopping online is just a bad habit: easy access + convenience.

3.) Look forward to something else (aside from shopping!). When you’re drying yourself out the tendency is to look forward to the next shopping binge. If you find yourself doing this, stop and try to find something else to look forward to.

4.) Stay out of the mall. There are many other things you can do for fun aside from going to the mall. When you go there, it’s inevitable that you’ll spend money.


5.) Stay out of DISCOUNT signs. If you need to buy something important just get it, don’t go to discounted area and for sure you will end up getting something you don’t need at all.

Cute Lunch

My lunch yesterday: Baby Natalie @ 5 months old :)

Travel Ticker

I've always wanted to travel. I think it is exciting to be in a different place and see how other people live. I've travelled a few for my work last year and some for fun. I have yet to see Hawaii and Europe hopefully this year. Travelling per se is fun already but what add spice to the experience are the sweet things you can remember of it: who were you with, the places you 've visited and the memories that has been created of it.

I'm a bit sentimental and always associate stuff with something/someone or a memory. Bonding makes the relationship sparkles. Last December, I was in Reno to watch Boyz to Men concert. It was awesome!!! They were classics. Loved every minute of it. :) I was in Vegas October of 2011, my first time in the Sin City. I was amazed with the whole Vegas thing & we watched the Jabbawockeez. Another entertaining performance. For my bday last year, the whole family went to Pismo Beach in Central California. Stayed there 3 days, couldn't be happier.

I am wanting to see more of the world for 2012 but I am hoping to have someone who wants to see it with me too. :)

In Search

What Are You Looking For?
Seems like an easy question, but it’s not. Especially when you are in a current status where you feel lost and in a limbo.

• How long will you be in this state? No one knows. You just have to go on everyday and hope that someday you will find the answer to the dreaded question.
• Emotional shut down- that’s where I am now.
• Feel loved? Yes-but it still feels empty. Doesn’t matter the quantity of kisses & hugs I
  receive it still feels point blank.
• Why? Cause I’ve been hurt and the hope for
  betterment of things vanished.
• Do I need attention? Maybe- I think I do but the
  sad part is it doesn’t fill the void. It’s just a temporary solution for what I am looking for. It is difficult to wake up and face each day with doubt and uncertainty of the only thing that makes me feel assured.
• My solution? Self-appreciation. Make myself happy and do things that will make me feel good about myself until I figure it out.
• Hugs & Kisses? Yes, I need it but I need it to come from someone who can promise
  me to be there for a long term otherwise it would not really matter.

2012

Smile.

I am excited for 2012. I always like new beginnings—it is a promise of better things ahead. For sure it will be another year of roller coaster of emotions and fun experiences. I plan to make myself a priority for 2012. I think sometimes I give too much that I neglect myself. I think for 2012 I will put value more on myself and give what it is due. I always say that happiness should be self confined but how easily I forget what I preach. I don’t need someone to re-assure me that I am a good person. I just need myself to reassure myself that alone or not I am good to go.

Hugs for me.

For 2012 I will learn to love myself more. I tend to find myself for 2012, have peace of mind and self-assurance. Cherish the things I like. Surround myself with people who appreciates me. Work on things that gives me purpose. :)

Decision Making

Why is it so hard to make a decision? Choosing between options has always been a dilemma for anyone. People just cant make up their mind provided all the choices they are given. But one way or another we still have to decide-- most of it are emotionally driven, some are fun driven, some are stability driven. Although I always say that if I think twice about something it means I dont really want it that badly. Some thoughts can be right away put out in the trash bin with no effort needed while other ideas still hover and slowly get the best of me.

So a challenge came out of it: if I dont want it why does it still linger in my mind??? Why do I always end up re-considering it? Why does it became a constant thought that I re-visit once in a while?

There's no way to handle it but to either DO IT or NOT DO IT. Life is an experiment. Life should be fun. We have to choose one thing over the other and through it we learn slowly about ourself and release the thought of pondering to what might have been. If it's not great as what we hoped for then no regrets.I believe we only get confused if there's an enormous part of us that wants it. I would not say that life is a hit or miss..i think it is more of taking chances. Having the courage to do what your gut tells you--do as you pleases..let the flow take you to wherever.. =)

It's Passion Not Drama

People who really knows me definitely would not describe me as a drama queen. My personality is far off from description. I seem not to care and keep emotions out of the way. I try to play it cool and not overreact to situations. But if you are reading this blog you might think i am the ultimate emo blogger you have ever encountered. (oooh..cmon don't nod your head..lmao)

I keep everything inside. That's why I love blogging cause this is my way to keep in touch with my inner self who bears deep down emotions that I have that I tend to put aside. I like blogging because i can be a "drama queen" without the actual hassle of tears and being overly dramatic to the point annoying someone in real life.

But i dont think I can consider myself a drama queen at all..i dont mumble and rant over unimportant stuff. I would say that I am more of a passionate person who gives her all to something or someone. So when all things fail I'm the one left behind with a deep scar inside my heart. I like feeling the "feeling"--does it even make any sense!?! Oh well, it doesn't matter: i call it passion and not drama. =)

Who I Wanna Be:

I want to be the one who brightens up your day

I want to be someone to make you smile

I want to be your constant thought for the day

I want to give you the security that you need

I want to be the love of your life

I want to fill the void that you feel

I want to be there if you need help

I want to listen on your complains

I want to hug you in your despair

I want to be there to share your glory

I want to give the support that you need

I want to hold your hand when you’re in doubt

I want to be your inspiration

I want to give you a reason to dream

I want to give your happiness

I want to stand by you through thick & thin

I want to be your bestfriend

I want to help you through the rain

I want to make your heart beat fast

I want to bring out the best in you

I want to share my life with you..

Endless Possibilities

I had always been a happy person or at least I try to be. I just feel that life is too short to waste for mourning or grieving for a long time..or probably that is my defense mechanism-- I am not sure either way.

In general, I see everyday as a new day--new people, new experiences, new stories, new connections & new moments. It is just but exciting to live everyday and veer off from our old boring routine. That’s probably why I like travelling, exploring and doing new stuff I haven’t done before. Change is good. It makes me wonder what is ahead and all the good things that can happen in the future.

When I was younger I used to be idealistic, things can only be either black or white and gray is non-existent. But as I get more mature year every year my mind is slowly embracing thoughts that I would have not even entertained when I was in 20s. I would like to call it maturity or maybe stupidity-haha—I don’t even know!

What I am sure of out of all these uncertainties is that as I spend more time with myself I learn to identify who I am and what will make me happy. I know now that you cannot live life by rules.. sometimes you should just trust the flow and see where it’s going to lead you. It is nicer to be more open and get all the life moments that you can grab. We just have to learn everyday and love ourselves unconditionally. Possibilities are endless you just have to have faith in love, life and in God.